O MY GOSH YALL!!!! I look like the Miss Hulk...and not in a good way. I look as if I am 8ft tall and have shoulders just as wide! It is not attractive! NOT AT ALL! I am telling yall....this picture is TERRIBLE! And I am really afraid that this picture is reflecting what I really look like. Which scares me! And makes me super sad and frustrated...and even a bit defeated.
And something I find interesting is the way the mirror images can changed based on how you feel or what your mind believes. All last week, I wasn't sad when I saw my flaws in the mirror (those bigger and more unpleasant parts) because I was believing they were slowly going away. I was feeling more confident! And feeling like I was getting closer to my goal.
But then, immediately after I see this picture, that same mirror image looks totally different now. All of a sudden my flaws seem bigger again and I am now seeing myself completely different. And I don't like this! I wish this picture would have never surfaced, so I wouldn't be second guessing myself and all the hard work I have put in!
Even my daughter told me I looked "deformed"! LOL! She swears I don't look like this picture, but of course she is gonna say that! She is a daughter......
|The bottom, right pic is the one haunting me.|
Tomorrow I will wake up and start my day with a run...... And keep eating clean and try to move on from this terrible self doubt. But I wanted to be honest! Needed to document this and learn from it!
SAY GOOD BYE TO MISS HULK BTW!!!!